I don’t think we’ve done things conventionally. I don’t think we will. It seems like things are taking freaking forever, and that’s because it is. Sometimes i struggle with feeling like a total failure because I’ve been playing music for so long and have only two singles and a hand full of shows to show for it. But then i think of the people I’ve met, the things I’ve learned and how much I’ve created in the quiet that has totally fueled my private creative soul. I also think of how many years I spent in the church “worship” music scene, like my whole childhood up until 2 years ago. Most of my music career has been spent there, and I don’t regret it. It taught me to listen to the spirit and flow with the vibes. But it also has really boxed up my freedom to create outside of that structure. Since moving away from that, I spiritually and musically have basically started from scratch. It’s been a lot of trial and error, trying not to “throw the baby out with the bath water”, but also fight for my own voice in this creative world. I guess you could say we’re playing the long game intentionally. I’d rather produce content that I’m proud of than produce a lot of content that is mediocre and trendy. But i also know that the point of music is to share with people where you’re at right now in the process, and i lean towards only showing the “perfect” end result. I have no idea what I’m doing, and I’m not alone in that truth. But i do believe in the power of music, and i believe we all have a story to share with our art. It’s that balance between getting shit done, but also listening to your body and soul during the process and taking time for self care.
At the end of the day, we are all fighting our battles of self doubt and hatred for our work, but i think it’s all a beautiful mess of humanity and it’s all good if we continue onward. I’ve voiced that this year i will give you this album, Desert Days. That scares the shit out of me, but seeing the people around me share their “imperfect” work makes me less scared. So yeah, screw the voice of failure. I’m exactly on track for my own revealing. I’m saying yes to the beautiful, difficult creative work ahead of me. And I’m affirming the whole journey I’ve taken till now. It’s my journey and I’m thankful for each piece. It brought me to 2018, and I’m coming for you.
- A
